♡ My Testimony: UPDATED ♡

Last year I shared my personal testimony and a lot has happened since then so I thought I would write an updated version! BUT before you read the updated please check out my 'first part' so you know where I'm following from: Testimony

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So, from where I left off, I had the opportunity to do a dance course at a college. However, this did not fall through. LAST minute, a week or so before I was to start it and move to a whole new city with a deposit paid for a house share, I received a phone call saying that I could no longer attend due to me being the only person on this course. I was heartbroken- I did not know what this meant for me, or what to do next. With everything feeling like it was crashing around me, I honestly did know what was going on. I prayed that they could find other people, that they could make a way for me or anything. I was convinced dance was for me so I was confused! After there being nothing to do at college, being left unsupported and alone. I prayed that God would make a way, He got me this far, so I know He would not have left me. Not long after, maybe even hours after this happening something came to me 'Primary School Teacher'. I was like huh, well it doesn't sound that bad of an idea, I've always just wanted to be a teacher but I always thought I would not have the patience for it. Well, let's just say God thinks otherwise. I stepped massively out in faith, with everything in God's hands- believe me there were a few tears along the waiting- I moved out to the new city. With no idea if I could get a place at their university. I moved into my house share. Paid a months rent. I was there- so what next?

I prayed and prayed and seeked God every single day to make a way. With a couple of weeks til the welcome week, I applied to a Primary Teaching course and saw an Education studies one too. I had my heart set on the Primary course. I waited, and prayed and waited up until the LAST DAY OF WELCOME WEEK. Then I received an email saying I would not be able to join as it was too late for the Primary course. So, I was led to phone about the Education Studies course, if they would take me on. Guess what? All my prayers had been answered. God made a way. He did it. Imagine it being the last day of an induction week, and they let you join their course! After praying for patience a few months before this, I certainly did and still am learning to be patient in the waiting- but that is a whole other testimony in itself. I learnt a lot about faith during this time, I literally had to lean completely on Jesus because man had failed me and will fail me. But how about this: on the morning I got a call about the dance course, I woke up with this on my heart "Unwanted by man doesn't matter when you are wanted by God! You're let down by man- never let down by God". How about that? God had prepared me the very morning about what was to come. When I went back to that note I had written, I knew I was in His hands. 

So after the call back to check I could join the course, everything was final, I had to change it on UCAS, they accepted me and everything was going smooth again! I began on Monday and instantly knew this course was for me! A few months into living in this flat, some of the people living above me were bring a lot of trouble to the house- in fact they brought the police multiple times. Raids, drugs, and darkness. I did not want to be here. I remember praying with my boyfriend constantly to protect us because there was a definietely a spiritual battle going on. From when we first came to this point, a darkness had formed, and it would make you feel sick. It was like I could not even see in the corridors because it felt so dark. The only light places were where we had been praying. Because God was with us. I'm including this as part of my testimony because, as you read in the first one, I suffered a lot with fearing man. This, my friends, this experience taught me and knocked the fear for man right out of me. I had to look to God to protect me. And I knew, if God is protecting me, then nothing can come to me. The song for this period was Psalm 23 I am not alone by Peoples and Songs. This carried me through this time. I remember lying alone one night, feeling fear, my boyfriend was at football and I was locked in the room knowing what was taking place- then this song came on. It was like God played it for me, to comfort me to realise He is there with me, and I really am not alone! So, I'm guessing you want to know how God got me out of this one? Well, He did- big time. First, the ring leader was arrested and caught but only for less than 24hrs, then more darkness felt like it came back. They were more hard work than before with hygiene, drugs and safety. We just had to look to the Lord and He did come through. We went to the boys, and prayed with them. And not long after our housing agency informed us we could go move to another property and it felt light again.

Fast forward to the end of my first year, my boyfriend was finishing his course, so moving next year back to this city alone was not something I wanted to do. I prayed that whatever I am meant to do for Him to tell me. Then this idea of moving back home to my local university to transfer - same course, year 2. I was not sure if I was thinking this myself, so I prayed if this is what you want God, let everything, even the smallest of things, let it go smoothly.

And guess what? IT DID! The whole process-which can usually be known as being difficult- went smooth! I knew this was God's will for me. He answered my prayers- gave me confirmation! 

Fast forward to today. I have nearly finished my first week of my second year and I love it! I know that I want to be a Primary Teacher and this course is perfect for it. 

You see, God takes us through these experiences but He never lets go of our hands. He knows what He is doing. He answers prayers not in ways you thought of- and they work even better for you than you could think of. Let this testimony be a reminder for you as it reminded me, God has His hand on you through your life. Your highs and lows. He has perfectly painted your life. It involves some storms but it is He who carries you through them. 

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Maybe next year will be a whole new update! Until then! Thank you for spending your time reading this update! I've loved looking back on what God really has done for me. God is amazing, He truly is.

See ya! ♡ 

♡ My Testimony ♡

All my life, since a young child, I have always believed in God and would call myself a Christian with ease. I went to Sunday School, Church, my parents brought me up as a Christian. But there came a time where I thought I said the sinner's prayer- I saw thought because I didn't actually confess with my mouth but each night I would repeat it because I thought the last time didn't count ( I was only young). Then high school came and I would still call myself a Christian to anyone who'd ask and I definitely believed. In all honesty, I was calling myself a Christian without knowing what it truly meant to be one. Skip forward to 2018 after falling away by being TOO much of this world and being selfish, materialistic, anxious, having panic attacks, fearing every single thing that could possibly exist, watching horror movies for a thrill, listening to music that didn't promote God but the world - little did I know, I was inviting a devil to personally get in my head from doing all of this, I was inviting him in by entertaining the things of him and not God! I'd always feel a heaviness on my chest- constantly! I would put it down to panic attacks but now I truly know the reason- the devil had it's chains all wrapped around me pushing me right down.

So, 2017 I began University- something I THOUGHT I was passionate about - notice thought being in capital letters? Yeah- lil miss who thinks she knows everything here got it wrong! So now we are in 2018- the start of the year God really got my attention with something that happened right at the start of the year-all from that moment I went through ALL kinds of emotions. Little did I know, God was strengthening me and preparing me. 

At the start of university, I thought yes this is everything I've ever wanted wow look at how amazing this place is! Ha- slowly one by one, everything about university started to beat me down one by one leading to me to be filled with fear, anxious and to ultimately begin to stop eating- it really impacted, my love for my course was being shrunk as I began to have no motivation to even go. It got to the day before my first ever proper assignment due date, I had been putting it off because of all that was going on- usually with things like that I am the first to just get it done and to understand this. But for some reason, I had no motivation to do it, I couldn't get my head around the assignment or anything and no-one could help me. Throughout this time, I still would be praying every night but again little did I know God had something greater for me- I just had to seek him. That very night- I made the decision to leave university the following day- and I did, weirdly everything went so smoothly and easy, but I remember the exact moment I was walking back to my flat thinking, well where do I go from here- what am I meant to do.  Next thing you know, I got accepted STRAIGHT away into a college for my course and this way I'd be able to be with my boyfriend and take a different route- this is something I came across before choosing university but just put it down. God will make a way- I'm telling you that now! So, there was a period that I was with my boyfriend for a long period every day- and it was from this that both of us started to get into the Word, I brought my Bible to his flat and started to watch Bible Project- I didn't straight away go to my Bible til one day I was like 'pass me my Bible please' then from then it all changed. From thinking reading a verse a day and then going back into the world to where I am today- I am so thankful! From that moment, I got stronger and stronger as everything seemed to fall into place, I had nothing to do, so I would spend each day in my Bible, watching Christian videos, learning more about God and myself! Then skip forward to 3rd June 2018- the night of this date, both myself and my boyfriend accepted the LORD into our hearts, repented and confessed with our mouths! God put us together for a reason, as throughout my journey we both were strengthening together and getting closer to God together! After I accepted the LORD, I brought a notebook, to begin a Bible Journal, and every day I would be in the Word, learning more and more - understanding things I never used to understand when I tried to read before! I remember trying to read Genesis and the first few lines baffled me, for some reason I couldn't get my head around it- it was because I went in without the Holy Spirit. Each day, more and more , I learn more and the LORD helps me understand and gives me wisdom and helps guide me and so much more- more than I could ever imagine. I even was led to create a new Instagram named ' Grace Over Pride' which the LORD helped me name as I was trying all different names then I came across James 4:6- and I knew then that God led me to that so it instantly came in my head- Grace Over Pride- and it was the only one that worked.

 Every day I am working on my relationship with him and my faith as well as myself. Not only have I noticed changed about me but my boyfriend and family have- that means a lot to me because I know God is chipping away at me helping me along my way. I can tell you something straight away- those panic attacks have gone, my fear is for the LORD, I don't have the obsession with the world and the things in it- I long and thirst for Christ, I want to live my life to serve him and only him! I want to be only walking down the narrow path- God has done so many things in my life, things I didn't even realise until getting close to Him that all this time- he was preparing me, and leading me to these moments! I feel reborn and new- I am born again! Since then I feel like a completely different person as the way I put it is that God has taken the worldly lens' that I had on and gave me brand new lens' which have adapted my sight to see everything in a different way!

Fast forward to today- every morning, day, night I have sat down in my little corner, made time for Jesus- and have been stuck in the Word, learning new things every time. The Holy Spirit guides me in ways you couldn't imagine! The LORD is always with me, I turn to him for everything! Yes, I can fall sometimes into the world but the LORD has given me strength to bring myself back through him - for example, I kept going on social media rather than having Bible time and study- so I was led to fast for 3 days and the desire for social media has been removed thanks to God! He has strengthened our relationship- and it will continue each and every day!

Thank you to the LORD, for everything he has done in my life to shape me to be who I am today- LORD thank you for guiding me and never leaving me- thank you Jesus Christ for dying on that cross for all of our sins- you took the punishment for us - you have given us that chance LORD to be with you forever and ever! Thank you God for using your only son! All glory to God for he is amazing in every single way!

I pray this helps anyone who the LORD guides to read this and make the best and biggest change in their life which is turning to Jesus and repenting! 

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♡ An introduction to me ♡

 Helloo to everyone who has stumbled across this post! 

I thought I would just introduce this blog I have recently created with about of information about me and why I have started this blog!

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So, my name is Rebekah but I prefer to be called Bekah! As I write this I am 19 years old and will be turning 20 in December (woah!). God has gifted me with the skills of being creative, as all my life I have taken a key interest into the more creative side of things- for example, one BIG interest of mine is dancing which is where I'd like my career to be ( of course if it's God's plan for me,) but more recently I have been getting into Bible Journaling and being more creative with the Word. 

I have used my creativity to start sharing the Word and Jesus' love through sharing my work and thoughts through my Instagram and Twitter! 

All my life I have completely believed in God and have been brought up in a Christian family - which I am so grateful for- but I  found myself being too much OF the world and I was fearing the world and things of the world and not God! I will definitely share my full testimony in an upcoming post!

 A massive part of my journey has been with my Boyfriend- Tatenda ( who also has started a blog- www.strengthinchristt.blogspot.com) - as we started from just reading verses of the day and thinking that was enough to being hit with a huge realisation that we seriously needed to change our ways! Since then we have become completely different individuals and our relationship is completely strengthened through Christ as we know he is the main focus of it.
Why I created this Blog?
Another side to me being creative is that I do enjoy writing and sometimes an Instagram post or Tweet is just not enough as when I start talking about Jesus, I just can't seem to stop! I feel like today I have been led to start this blog so I can share God's word and love to everyone rather than just my followers on social media! I just want to do the most I can do to share the word through different ways in life and using my skills from God to do so! I feel that God's word needs to be shared on every different platform that we can, as I know social media is a huge in our generation as well as blogging so I know people will be able to read the word as it's easy for people to come across if they are led too!
What will this Blog be about?
This Blog will be completely dedicated to God, whether it be sharing my journalling, sharing a message he has gave me, or even just writing on topics within the Bible- everything is going to be all about Jesus! I mean he deserves all the glory- right?! Another thing is that this Blog will also be helping my own journey and relationship with God through writing and sharing posts that he may lead me to do or for me to help someone or even myself!

I thank you for reading this and hope that you continue to follow me with reading and sharing God's word! Feel free to message or comment or anything you'd like me to post about as I just want to spread the Word of Christ!
Thank you!

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God Bless! Have a joyful day whenever you read this!♡

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